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You never give up [02 Dec 2008|12:29am]
[ mood | bored ]

Put your music-player on shuffle. Write down the first line of the first twenty songs it plays. The first line of the twenty-first song is your title.

My addendum to the meme: Tell me in the comments if you can identify the song by the first line. Googlers never prosper.


* This song goes out to you Lita Ford!
* Turn the tv off, put down the cosmopolitan
* Another day of deflating your face into tears
* You finally fade away
* No sleep til Brooklynnnn! (well, it's a damn gimme, but it came up...)
* Got my headlights shining down an old dirt road
* How's it feel to be so black?
* You believe in something else
* So close no matter how far
* How many special people change
* When you grow up, livin like a good boy oughta
* I'm outta love, outta love
* You traded all your tears so I could see your happy face
* I've been searching for you
* I see the happy family tree
* The human race was dyin' out
* You and I were two old and tortured souls
* I'm a lean machine, I'm the kind you don't want to meet
* You say that it's over baby
* You need my love baby, oh so bad

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Something between the burning shade and the faded light [01 Dec 2008|10:55pm]
[ mood | sad ]

so...I finally got a computer. No more trips to the library for me...at least to use the computer! Yay!

I'm listening to some raw tracks of Robert Pattinson singing at open mic nights at some club. His voice reminds me of Jeff Buckley on some tracks. His voice drips with emotion and feeling. These songs are the type that make you ache. The kind that you find yourself spellbound by the singer, mouth open...eyes open wide. When they finish, you realize that you were holding your breath. You let it out in a rush and mutter...Wow. Just...wow. I think my favorite so far is either I Was Broken or I'll Be Your Lover Too. Do yourself a favor and find these. Listen to them.

Having said that, I'm also a fan of his song that's on the Twilight soundtrack. I've seen the movie 3 times now. I've nearly worn out my copy of the soundtrack. I've read the Twilight books (all 4 of them) twice and am nearly finished with Twilight for the third time. I've also read Midnight Sun (Twilight from Edward's perspective)- at least the part that's out there - and hope that Stephenie Meyer actually does finish it one day. I've heard other people criticize Twilight because it doesn't follow "vampire rules". Who the fuck cares? I find myself longing for the love that Bella and Edward share. I wish that I had a man - be he mortal or immortal - that loved me with the depth and severity that Edward loves Bella. Truth be told, I'm jealous of the clumsy bitch.

I've had a pretty shitty year. 2008 has absolutely sucked. I've felt more removed from things that I've previously cared about. I've become detatched from friends. They've drifted away and I've not bothered to chase after them anymore. I'm tired. So very tired. I feel so old sometimes. I feel like I've had more than my share of shit thrown at me. Don't I deserve something good and pure and true? I've been abandoned by my father more times than a child should be. I've been sexually abused and raped. I was a participant in a loveless marriage that finally ended when I couldn't take it anymore and left. If I weren't afraid of what I'd miss, I might just wander off...never to look back.

As much as I've succumbed to my depression this year, I want to make it out, want to make it to the other side. I want to feel joy and happiness and unbridled enthusiasm again. I feel as though my depression covers me like a thick, wool blanket. I'm tired of the burden of carrying this thing around. It's hard to think of not being depressed though, as I've felt that way for so long. Is there hope? Is there a chance in hell that I might one day actually wake up and smile, happy for the day's arrival? It's hard to say at this point, but I hope so. God, how I hope so....

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I'm still alive! [04 Aug 2008|07:50pm]
[ mood | okay ]

I need to start posting over here again...
I'll be back soon to post an adequate entry!
XOXO

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I'm baaaacckk!!!! [07 Oct 2006|04:12pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Wow...I need to go get a pedicure before tonight's big show, but I wanted to post a bit before I do. My most favorite guys in Atlanta are celebrating the release of their new CD tonight and little ol' me is selling merch for them. I've organized t-shirts, rolled them in tape and marked them, and loaded them into a big rolling suitcase. Of course, I won't be able to carry said suitcase, but my plan is to find a hot guy that I'd like to have my way with and then let on with the poor damsel in distress bit. He'll carry the suitcase upstairs to my post, be mesmerized by me, and not be able to take his eyes off of me all night. Or at least just carry the fuckin' suitcase upstairs, lol.

Let's see...I've had a couple of boyfriends since I was last here. The first I dated for a few months. He was nice enough, but I didn't feel that amazing love for. We started arguing about stupid things like the fact that I got drunk one night and he drove me home, but was pissed that, in his opinion, I'd not acted responsibly. I also argued that as the guy courting me, he should drive most of the time on our dates. He disagreed and I found myself having to drive more and more. For Christmas, he said he was going to give me a great Christmas present that I'd love. A few days after Christmas, he came over and sat in front of the tree as I gave him his gifts. After he opened my well thought out gifts, he said, "Well, I bought the chips and cheese dip that we had the other night..." referring to a 3am run to Kroger after we'd made out for a while. Seriously. We broke up a few days later when he got mad that I got drunk on New Year's Eve. My friends nicknamed him "chips and dip", lol.

Then enter Michael. He was my most recent boyfriend.He was about a year older than me and was a professional wrestler wannabe.(no, really...he was going to school for it and worked indie shows) He brought me so much heartache and pain that I'm just starting to get over him. We dated for about 3 1/2 months, but we got extremely close, extremely fast. We'd even used the 'L' word and talked about kids. We joked about our daughter. Since Michael was of hispanic heritage, we said that our future daughter needed a good traditional hispanic name. We decided Anna Maria Christina Louisa Theresa. We'd joked and said that we'd name our son after my southern heritage. We selected Bob. ;o) Things were passionate and emotional with us. I loved the way he made me feel. He told me all the things that I needed and wanted to hear. Soon though, I got suspicious of certain behavior. He'd not answer his phone...not call when he'd say he would. He would change his story around about things he'd previously said. Everything started to seem so fabricated. I didn't know what to believe anymore. One day as we were sitting at his place (he lived in an extended stay hotel) and I kicked the comforter out of the way so I could sit down on the bed. (the comforter was already half off the bed) On the floor under the blanket was a pair of girl's white panties. Oh...and they weren't mine! Over the next week and a half or so, I found girl's socks (again...NOT mine!)...an additional toothbrush in the bathroom...and mint chocolate chip body scrub. He tried to explain the last one by saying that it was his. I calmly told him that unless he was gay or a woman, I didn't think a man would want to smell like that. Throw in a suspicious email from a girl who said she'd been his girlfriend for the last 5 months and it was all way more than I could take. I finally told him that I couldn't see him anymore...that my heart was breaking and I couldn't continue to put myself thru that. Instead of trying to make me see that he was innocent or truly loved me, he waved the white flag and basically said, "k...see ya bye!" Anyway, I finally got to express my anger just the other day when I called him and said, "Look...I'm not saying this to try to get back together. I don't want to hear your explanations or excuses. Just listen." I proceeded to tell him that the hurt and betrayal I felt were monumental and that I was having a hard time moving on because I didn't think he fully understood the depth of pain that he caused. In the end, it may not make a bit of difference to him, but to me, I got to say things that needed to be said.

I'm trying to just go with the flow and not fixate on any one guy. To actually look around and see what's out there. As I told Michael in closing, I know what kind of woman I am and I know the type of man that I deserve. I just have to have faith that I'll find him...or that he finds me.

I'm off...it's gotten late and I need to go get ready to rock!! Y'all be good...
XO

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Long time, no talk... [06 Oct 2006|11:55am]
[ mood | good ]

So I've not been around at all for...checks watch...a year and a half or so. lol, I guess that I've just been on Myspace too much. I didn't realize so many people still came here and posted. I promise I will start to write on here again. I've had SO MUCH happen since I was here last.

I need to go pick up my check and run some errands, but I will be back to the world of Lj!! Oh, and I've been able to add some really recent photos of myself...look how long my hair is now! :o)

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What the...? [12 Mar 2005|10:50am]
[ mood | happy ]

What the fuck do I know? lol...I got to see him last night and I feel very positive about alot of things now. SHE was there, but eh...whatever. I didn't meet her...I don't want to. I don't want to be her friend. I don't want to pal around with her. He and I had several moments during the show that made me really happy. Afterwards, we were talking and he told me to come to the show on Thursday and that since he was driving in, he would call me.

It's been so long since a man has made me feel at all special...beautiful...wanted. Yet, he's able to make me feel all of these things with just one look or one touch.

Le Sigh....
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

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Charleston [09 Mar 2005|04:36pm]
[ mood | pessimistic ]

I can't write long...the library's closing soon...but he took me to Charleston for the weekend. *SIGH*

It sucks though because I really got to hang out with him and talk and get to know more about him.

And
I
Like
Him
!

*DOUBLE SIGH*
Things are so complex though. I don't know that it'll work out the way I want, but I'm trying to have faith that they (eventually!) will.

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Bitter [02 Mar 2005|01:49pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

I'm so frustrated with men. I think that most of them suck...most of them KNOW they are feeding us this continuous stream of bullshit that we just eat up because we want to feel loved...desirable...cherished. I don't know if I'm overreacting, but it's making me feel not-so-great. Greg B. would say that that's not a good thing and I think I'm agreeing with him today. It's not so great at all. It's not so great that I allow myself to get so wrapped up, thinking that this guy is super-cool...It's not so great that I have to wait on him to call or email...It's not so great that I'm sitting here wondering if the things he told me were sincere or yet another string of lies concocted to make me let down my guard.

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Great Scot! [28 Feb 2005|01:44pm]
[ mood | flirty ]

So it's Monday and I'm at the library. I had a great weekend! Sigh..simply fabulous. I've not been on here in ages, so I guess I should tell a little more.

My weekendCollapse )

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[24 Jan 2005|05:51pm]
[ mood | loved ]

*sigh*
Alas, I'm home from the first Flicker-fest of the year. I had such a fabulous time, but I don't want to rush all the funny, silly stories that I have to share. Instead, I'm going to write a nice little post at home and bring it in to the library and copy and paste it here.

I'll leave you with possibly my favorite Flickerstick lyric ever...
Imagine there's noone around....Imagine you're not just a face in the crowd...

Hugs and tons of ♥!

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Day at the library [10 Jan 2005|10:56am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

So the crazy little man who makes lots of weird noises is here at the library today. He gets within an inch or two of the computer monitor and will then let out this, "HAH!HAHA.." from time to time. Now, he's sitting on the little sectional sofa behind me reading the paper. Periodically, he'll stop to lay his head back and rest. There are lots of people here today for it to be early on a Monday. There's a black man over there, going thru the paper. He's got a pen in hand so maybe he's looking thru the want ads for a job? Maybe a lady-friend in the personals? Ahh, there's a trucker looking guy. He's wearing Wranglers, a worn black baseball cap, and a black and blue plaid shirt. He has sunglasses on the hat with a blue mirrored finish that match his shirt...

There are so many people around us all every single day. It's not that I'm just figuring this out, but every now and then I like to just take a minute and look around...see who else is out in the world. Perhaps someone is at one of the other computers, typing about me. Maybe they're commenting on the dark haired girl with her crimson streaks...her tattoo peaking out from under her t-shirt sleeve...sunglasses of her own pushed up on her head...lost in quiet thought...

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Oh, how I AM amused... ;o) [07 Jan 2005|11:21am]
[ mood | amused ]

I, along with a few friends, have new names that I will go by. Please respect my decision and address me as such....♥

It's Not Sex. It's ... :
Rockin the Casbah




Your Porn Star Name is: Auntie Tata




Your Stripper Name is: Rain




Your Girl Parts Are Named: Tinkleflower


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[07 Jan 2005|10:32am]
[ mood | calm ]

And about NYE...I'll give the highlights.

* Ann and Amanda and I went to the big shin-dig at the Mariott Marquis. We had to buy dresses and shoes and accessories. (Oh My!)

* I wore Minnie Mouse shoes...or so the girls kept calling them. They were these fabulous heels that were patent leather open toed shoes. They had a bow across the toes and had all these multi-colored sparklies in the patent leather.

* I sang in front of a packed room for the Metalsome Monday show. I chose I Hate Myself For Lovin' You by Joan Jett. As I started singing the second verse, Richard and Curtis stood right next to me in a very Night-At-The-Roxbury way. As I sang, "I wanna see your face and say forget it just for spite..." I put my hands up and mock pushed them away. Curtis just grinned at my reaction to them. The crowd loved it and cheered loudly at my expression of girl power. :oD It was a very cool, rock-n-roll moment for me.

* I flashed someone who had teasingly said I needed to show him "my big ol' titties". I don't think he really expected me to, but when I did he said, "You know you've wanted to do that for a while." I grinned, walked away, and said over my shoulder, "Yeah...and you know you've wanted to see for a while..." ;oP

* I grubbed with someone in his room. (The expression 'Grub' was introduced to me by my friend Robbie. She says 'grubbing' is when you just make out to make out...not with the expectation or intention of it leading to more...) Either way, this person was a very good grubber...and I'd love to grub some more!

* My grubbing partner has called me everyday (except Wednesday) since then and we've talked for a minimum of 20 minutes, but it's usually around 45 minutes. I don't know what to think because I don't know many guys that just call up female friends to chat, yet he hasn't brought up the grubbing and he hasn't asked me out. He did however ask me to sing The Ramones while he played bass on I Wanna Be Sedated for MM. Unfortunately, he was not feeling well and didn't make it. Friends...what are your thoughts on this??

Alright...I'm going to go, but y'all have a safe, fun weekend.
Happy New Year y'all!
*Hugs and Love*

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My thoughts from the other night... [07 Jan 2005|10:29am]
So, my computer sucks major amounts of ass, but I seem to have found a way to blog/post at home...and then post it here. It's really very complex, mind you. I write...save it to a disk...and then copy and paste it here. Tricky, huh? lol...anyway...this is what I wrote the other night. I'm sure there'll be more to come...



Subject: Turnin’ Back…She Just Laughes
Date: January 6th, 2005
Time: 12:11am
Mood: melancholy, yet hopeful
Music: Catherine Wheel – Black Metallic

So, here I sit…a little after midnight and I’m having to type this into a regular Word program. I intend on saving this to a disk and then transferring it to Myspace or Live Journal or wherever I see fit once I’m at the library tomorrow. Good times I tell ya….

You know, I’m very hopeful for 2005…but then, aren’t we all this early on in the year? Hell, the year is only 5 days old. It should be a time for us to be optimistic. Who knows what lies in store for us this year! I don’t know that I believe in setting resolutions for myself anymore. When you wind up not quitting smoking/losing that weight/getting that new job/quit drinking…you just beat yourself up about it. Why do that? Instead, I’m going to just think positive and do my best. I would really like to start the book that I hope to have published some day though. Do I know what I want my book to be about yet? Not exactly…I have several ideas running thru my head.

I also really hope to make more of an impact with my love of music. Perhaps this will be the year that I start my promotion/management company? After my conversation with Dana last week, I’m hopeful that something will happen.

I’m also making a vow to myself to not sweat so many little things. This includes all those guys out there that I fancied in 2004. Don’t get me wrong, I think a lot of these men who made my heart flutter. However, I shouldn’t have to work so hard to get a guy to like me or want to date me or want to spend time with me. Hell, I’m a great catch. I’m loyal to my friends and family…I am passionate about the things that move me the most…I’m even amusing at times. I’m a great listener and if you trust me enough to bear your soul to me, I’ll try everything in my power to help you find a solution to your problem or at least attempt to make you smile and get your mind off of it, if for only a little while. I think my outside is so inconsequential when compared to the wonderful parts that make up my inside. Whether I lost 100 pounds or not, I’d still be the same Karla on the inside. If someone can’t realize that, do I really want to waste my time with them? Now, I’m not saying that any of the men that I’ve liked/crushed on/lusted after in 2004 didn’t accept me for me. I’ve made lots of fabulous friends this year that I’m extremely grateful for. I think this rant/vent/post may serve as nothing more than a reminder to myself that at one time I knew/felt/believed that I deserve to be treated better than I have been in the past. Maybe I should read this whenever I start doubting me and my worth, huh?

*Sigh* I’d be a liar if I said I didn’t hope for a romance this year. I wish that there was someone who just couldn’t quit thinking of me…someone who called me in the middle of the day, just to say hi…someone who opted to stay in with a movie, despite that great band playing wherever, just because he knew I had a horrible day at work. I’d love to have a guy who knew when I just needed to vent about the jerk of a customer I had and when to offer a solution to my problems. (Incidentally, all my ex ever said was “Well, do something or be quiet about it. It’s your choice…”) I may come across as this independent, hard ass chick, but deep down inside…I’d love that movie romance. I long to be cherished and appreciated. I long to have a guy open my car door for me. *Double Sigh* I’m not trying to reveal TMI here or even knock my ex (he’s a good man…we were just horribly wrong for each other. Sadly, it took us way too long to figure that out…), but my ex and I grew to be more like roommates who didn’t even like each other than husband and wife. There would be days where I didn’t even hear that much needed “I love you” or feel the hug that I longed for when he came home from work. {wow…ironically, I have my media player on shuffle and Butch’s The Best Thing That You Never Had just came on…sniff, sniff…}

I guess I’ll end this little post on that note. Thank you for listening to my tirade…my little positive self-talk…my inner thoughts.


*K*
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And then...the next year... [08 Dec 2004|04:23pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

Things I like.... [08 Dec 2002|08:56pm]
[ mood | lethargic ]
[ music | Dropsonic on Stage 96... ]

* Flickerstick--of course I LOVE the 'Stick!
* My memories of all the concerts I've been to in the
past year and a half..
* The way my glittery nail polish shimmers and sparkles
when I move my fingers..
* Jessica's fuzzy, soft hat. I want one,but in black!
* Cool, sparkly stickers..
* Christmas lights..
* Anything that is sparkly or glittery!
* When Creative Loafing is delivered on time to the
Blockbuster in my store..
* Vanilla coke..
* Boys/men that are funny..
* When WKRGR (Kroger radio..)plays good songs..
* Vanilla yogurt..
* When stupid people go to another register..
* The hot guy with the blonde ponytail that comes into my
store..
* The color green..
* Oriental salads..
* Guitar players..
* LIVE music!
* All my rockin' friends..
* Green AND sparkly make me immensely happy..
* Mayfield's banana split ice cream - yum!

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For shits and giggles... [08 Dec 2004|04:15pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

For shits and giggles, I looked back at my calendar and checked what I posted in the past years. The following is my post from 3 years ago...


Will I.....? [08 Dec 2001|02:01am]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | Limp Bizkit - The One.... ]

Hi....I didn't think my last entry was received because it never posted. Low and behold it showed up today though.

I am wondering if we are going to bother putting up a Christmas tree this year. I am sure we won't. I don't think it would bother him to not have a tree up. I am apparently not going to be around long enough to mess with it. It kind of makes me sad because I normally love Christmas and really get in the Christmas spirit.Hopefully, this time next year I will be all content. :oS

Tomorrow is my niece's birthday party. I think Rob has decided that he doesn't want to go. I reminded him today that it was tomorrow and he said, "okay..if I decide to go." I gave him a hard time because he never said he wasn't going or even implied that he was thinking of skipping out on the party. As I posted in the last entry though....I give a shit. Go if you want, don't if you don't want to. Whatever.

I have some news on the apartment search, but I am too tired to do it justice. I will try to get on here tomorrow and tell you all about it.

GoodNight......

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Good Grief!..... [08 Dec 2001|08:46am]
[ mood | I have a headache..... ]
[ music | The whistling of my washing machine...... ]

Good morning! I can't be on long because I have a ton of things to do today. I have to go to the mall and get a little shirt or outfit or something for my niece's teddy bear that I have for her. I want to run back up to the apartment I looked at yesterday (I'll get to that in a minute...), and I need to run to the bank. I'd like to get to my mom's before everyone else today for the party.

Well, just when I think my luck has to change...I wound up (of course)hacking my head off last night as I was trying to go to sleep. It never fails..I can go hours without coughing, but as soon as I lay down and start drifting off to sleep...a coughing fit! Well, with me, my coughing fits are these horrible attacks where I usually wind up wretching in dry heaves or throwing up. Well, last night the coughing turned into the whole getting sick thing (sorry this is kinda gross....)and I just knew what happened. It happened before when I was really sick. I can feel it. What is it you ask? Well,all the pressure of me throwing up/hacking has busted the blood vessels in my left eye! So, all the white of my eye....is now all bloody! Oh good grief! Can I not just be done with all this damn bad stuff happening?? I believe in the whole good karma thing so I am either fixing to have REALLY good things happen for me, or I have REALLY done something wrong in the past. I don't think I have done anything that is so bad that it warrants all of this shit I have had happen lately. Who knows? I am almost reaching the point where I just have to laugh. "Oh...haha...I busted the blood vessels in my eye. Doesn't THAT look funny? haha..." Yeah, I am not really laughing either. :oS

Well, about this apartment that I looked at yesterday...It was really nice!! It was more like a little duplex. It had a really big kitchen with a ton of cabinets, 2 bedrooms, 2 baths, 2 different living room areas, tons of storage, walk in closets. I really liked it! I need to make sure I can afford it. I think I am going back today to see if I can look at one of the other 2 bedrooms that is available. The only thing I didn't like about the model I looked at yesterday was that the unit was on the end and it was on this huge hill. I kept worrying that my car was going to tip over! I am serious..... I think I am going to take the camcorder and record just how big it is. They just give you a key and let you look around yourself. Noone would even know I was taping. I want to also measure and see where I would put stuff. It was really nice though..

Okay, I guess I am going to go for now. I'll try to get back on later when Grumpy goes to his Christmas party.
Bye....

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Blah-fucking-blah blah! [08 Dec 2004|03:26pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

So I deleted the post of me and dude. Hopefully any of my friends who wanted to see said picture, did. If not, let me know and I'll send you the link. I just feel very stupid for having that on here and even saying that I felt/feel that way.

Still, I'm torn. WHY should I feel guilty for liking someone? I mean, granted there are circumstances that make it complicated, but if I don't act on it there's no harm in just thinking someone is super is there?

Fuck.
I need a drink.
Is it too early to have a beer? Maybe a shot?

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Could use some happy thoughts [07 Dec 2004|07:21pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

I'm feeling very blah today....I'm at the library and the computer table I'm sitting at is too tall for this chair. I feel like a kid who's typing away at her mom or dad's computer.

I've been having alot of pain and swelling in my foot as of late, but don't really have the money to go to the doctor. Good ol' work cutting my hours just enough to not have to give me full time benefits, yet working me enough to make me want to saw off my own foot at the end of the day. I know the first thing they'd do is x-rays. My foot looks (in my opinion) so bad and all mangled, like it didn't heal quite right. It's the moments when my foot burns and stings and throbs that I get angry at the jackass who caused my accident last year. It's the moments when it takes me at least twice as long to go up or down stairs because of my lack of balance because of my foot condition that I get angry. I try to remind myself that I'm lucky to be alive...deep down, I realize this...but I still get angry that someone's reckless behavior has caused this pain and frustration for me. Maybe I'll post pics from my wreck sometime. I don't think I ever showed anyone the pics of my car or my foot.

Anyway, I'm just feeling very pessimistic tonight. I'm feeling very gloomy and very alone. Maybe once I go home and throw on my comfortable sweats and take a hot bubble bath I'll feel better.

*sigh*
:o/

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Oh..and one more thing... [04 Dec 2004|12:14pm]
[ mood | flirty ]

Oh...and I have a pic of us that starryeyes73 snapped a couple of weekends ago, but I'm hesitant to post it. What if the wrong person sees it and goes and blabs that I'm talking about him in here? However, maybe some of you could post your thoughts and comments on body language and just how damn cute he is! Hmmm, maybe I will on Monday....

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He Rocks [04 Dec 2004|11:54am]
[ mood | flirty ]

So I'm at the library (of course). I've got to be at work in a few hours. Good times...not so much. At least it's a short shift today. My back and my neck were feeling all jacked up last night. Still are a little bit today, but not as bad. Let's see...what else is going on in Karla-land?

Well, I've started to have crush like feelings for a guy I know. He's a super guy and we have alot in common. It's weird because we've been friends for a while, but here lately...I just can't quit thinking of him. Crazy, huh? He's just so damn cute...and gad...so sweet! I keep remembering things that we've talked about or done. It's not helping the crushy feelings, lol. What's that? You said you want an example? Okay...

We were both at karaoke one night and we were discussing the live band country karaoke. He said he wanted to go and I said that I'd been one time, but alot of people had been out of town so it wasn't a great turnout. I mentioned that I'd love if they learned some Bonnie Raitt. Before I even said what song, he chimed in with, "Yeah! I Can't Make You Love Me...I love that song!" I agreed and then we proceeded to sing the song as if noone else was around, acapella. *SIGH*...

You want another example? Alright...
Just the other night the ladies of G.L.O.R were having a meeting at Dark Horse before karaoke. He came in with his bandmates and gave me this great hug from behind where he just held me. He asked me if I'd had dinner yet and when I responded that I had, he said, "Well, sit with me anyway. Sit with me while I eat. We don't get to talk enough." He then kissed me on the cheek and said, "Love ya girl..."
So...we finished our G.L.O.R meeting and when I stood up, HE stood up from his spot at the table behind us. I turned around and there were alot more people at his table now. He asked if I was going downstairs and I just dumbly said yes. I didn't want to barge in on his dinner since there were more people there. I know, I know...I missed my friggin window. However, one of my G.L.O.R sisters and I were talking and she said she really DID see some sort of little spark between the two of us.

I don't know if I'm just seeing these things because I want to or if maybe there's a possibility of him feeling at least a little of the same way.

I hope he's at karaoke on Monday. If he is, I'm going to take action...somehow. Send him a drink? I know what he drinks. Twirl my hair as we talk? Kinda lame, but the sure sign a girl is into you, right?

*Sigh*
Any suggestions friends? Any advice or opinions?

Alright, I have to get home so I can get ready for work, but y'all be good and have a safe, fun weekend!
*Hugs and Love*

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